This has been a pretty good week, as far as weeks go. I managed a work from home day as well as days in the office. I got a lot done and had some really great conversations with people. I kept up with my P90X.   I really am very happy with my life. I have a hubby who treats me like gold (even while making me laugh until I pee because he is just silly). My daughters are challenging but rewarding and I love them with every ounce of my being. My job is fulfilling, interesting and fun! My health is really good. Seriously, it’s all good.

So why, then, do I feel like this right now: I just want to be free of every responsibility.

Ever feel that way?

I would love nothing more than to go to a hotel room somewhere with just me and my knitting. I don’t want to DO for anyone. No laundry. No dishes. No cooking or cleaning. I just want to be.

Is that horrible of me? I really don’t want to run away forever. And it is not that I am trying to escape. I am completely joyful in my life. I guess I just want a break.

Anyway, that’s what is on my mind right now. I have a feeling part of it is because I was supposed to go away tomorrow for another girls’ night out/dancing night. The trip has been canceled/post-poned. I now face a weekend of chauffeuring my girls to different activities and getting all my reality done. I’ll be lucky if I end up with an hour or two by myself with just my knitting. It’s also unlikely I’ll have complete control of the remote until late into the evening.

Anyway, don’t feel bad for me. I will end up having a very good weekend, I am sure. I just wanted to share that nagging little voice inside that is wishing for that quiet. And I know, in just a few years, I will yearn for these days. I will someday have that empty house with way too much free time.  Until then….