things have been quite chaotic at home lately, so i have not posted much. i tend to do that…. which is quite the opposite of what i should do. ideally, if i am stressed, i should blog. that way, the thoughts get out and i can let them go. yeah, i should try to remember that.

anyway, things are starting to settle down. mia is starting to feel a bit better. i even have another kid-free weekend ahead of me. it’s not actually the whole weekend, but from friday evening until sunday afternoon.

so one of the things on my mind is that my ex has requested only taking 2 of our 3 daughters. his reason is that his apartment is much too small for four people. now, i will agree his apartment is too small. however, i will not agree to him only taking 2 girls. my reply to his email? ‘get a bigger apartment.’

the next thing on my mind would be my job. yes, i do like my job. i’m quite good at it. but lately, i just don’t want to be there. i would much rather stay home. so what does that say? does it mean i need a change? does it mean i need a nap? i certainly need a raise!

i am always tired. always. i would blame my late night knitting for my sleepiness, except that when i try to go to bed early i cannot sleep. maybe it’s my diet. i quit drinking pop last month, so i know i have a lot less caffeine in my system than i used to. that could be it too. i’ll keep thinking on this.

next thought…. do i go back to school? we have a fairly constant stream of representatives from various institutions of higher learning who visit my classroom. there have been more than a few that have prompted me to think, “Hey! I want to go there!” but the reality is that i am not able to go back to school at any time soon. i am the main supporter of my children. i have rent, utilities, bills, blah blah blah. that being said, it has not stopped me from day dreaming about the possibilities.

moving on, i have begun to read a local online publication about my hometown. there is one person who writes for it that cannot seem to find a single positive thing to say. i have read his ‘editorials’ about various topics. he is well-spoken enough, but every comment he makes, every opinion he has, every point he tries to convey…. they are all negative.  it bothers me. i don’t exactly know why, because i do not even know this person, but for goodness sake…. why so negative?

chocolate… that’s another thought on my mind. it’s a lovely thought and it’s there because i just had some. yay me 😀

finally, on my mind today is my knitting. why is it on my mind? because my hands really want to be doing it at this moment, and pretty much all the time. so when i am not actually knitting, i am usually thinking about knitting. i bet that one is no big surprise, eh? 😉